A new chapter

I think I have now started a new chapter in my life. I feel like I have got some things back in my life which I have missed a lot and I am also experiencing new things. With both these things combined it makes for a pretty good time!

I am seeing my friends lots and it's not just for a few beers at the end of the week. I visit them once a week and last week enjoyed an evening at my mates house eating KFC and watching the apprentice. It doesn't sound like much but it is purely a nice time to catch up and have a mini banter about the week.

I am currently going through a new(ish) set of emotions as well. Something I haven't felt since I was in secondary school.

I want to begin a relationship with a girl...who doesn't?

The funny thing is: I have no girl in mind and am not looking for anything too intense. For the past few years I have been looking for a girl who I can spend the rest of my life with but I have no come to realise that I was putting that in front of my own feelings, not along side.

This meant I generally felt unhappy and incomplete. I enjoy my life, my friends and my cars. This is what I will be doing for a while now. If a girl comes along that can fit in with that then that's great but if not, what have I lost? I am still enjoying myself!

I am looking for a person who I sit next to for the whole night without feeling pressured to please or entertain. I can do that with my friends. If I want sex, i'll go get it...end of.

I am now going to have a beer and watch iPlayer and fall asleep. Today I have spent more money on myself, shoes, trousers, coffee, jumpers. Crazy expenditure but I'm going to keep up the pretence that it's my 'rebound'.

I like being able to look at my life reflectively, realising I enjoy things is something I want to be able to do this forever.

Thanks for reading.